a letter to the seven years old me

a letter to the seven years old me

Posted by Dinda on March 26, 2020 in

hi kiddos, whats up?

i have no idea what im gonna talk to right now but all i can remember about you is that you're a cheerful kid, you loved to smile and laugh for something that isn't really funny

you don't ask for toys or a teddy bear, i can say that you have no interest about those stuff, a normal stuff that you should've liked for your age

and your favorite color is grey, i mean i dont know how did you like grey since grey actually a mix color between black and white, or it could be a symbol of good and bad, yin and yang like it's confused me you ever like grey as your favorite color, is that a sign for your future or something huh

i think that the kind of a girl you are really is too nice to be exist for this mad world

you cute and all but you don't have enough courage to speak

you're a girl who love uncommon things that not everyone could understand the way you speak and feel through your natural language

be who you are, i know that you have your own kingdom in your head and a girl with a big heart who loves to dance with the wind

before stressed attack you, you were the optimist person i've ever saw in my whole life, you dare to dream, you don't care about what people think about you, no matter how hard they're tried to tear you down, you believe that what's for you will be yours and you understand that there's nothing to do with anyone about it, you practice que sera-sera so well

you have a big heart, those big heart contain a lot of magical feelings, the feeling of loving yourself, feeling enough, feeling blessed and never give up in your dream

and that is something you gonna miss, sooner or later
because growing up makes you forgot who you are, who you truly are
time, people, the way we think, every second in our life changes
you better enjoyin your life and learn to prepare for the war of you and yourself in the future
i warn you, please prepare for that by tryin to control feelings
and loving yourself a little harder

you've done so much in your life that makes you be the person who i am right now
and for that, i'm so grateful

don't be afraid, its inevitable everything that's good comes to an end

i miss you, i miss the way you see life with courage and never be afraid of the uncertainty, i miss the way you never hate on situation you've struggling in
i miss having a light in your heart that can bright your way and guide you
i change a lot and i miss you
i keep telling myself that everybody changes
and it is because we growin up
we growin up into something bigger, brighter and mature

we will face the new face, we will lost the loved ones
but we're ready
because there's nothing in this world stays forever

P.S
i still had those light in my heart but it's gettin dark outside and i'm no longer have the courage and faith like you had

all i believe is kindness will guide me through the dark,
cause underneath the darkness there's a light that trying so hard to be seen
i believe that those light is the light everyone deserve for being kind.

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Life is too short to focus on the bad things

Life is too short to focus on the bad things

Posted by Dinda on February 07, 2020 in

Tulisan ini mungkin akan menjadi koleksi langka bersama tumpukan tulisan lain di draft atau, jika aku cukup berani, akan ikut mejeng bersama beberapa tulisan yang sengaja ku persilakan untuk dibaca.

Setelah mengakhiri hari dengan menonton bioskop bersama dua makhluk tersayang ditempat ini, aku seakan mengerti beberapa hal.

Lampu-lampu motor mulai terasa sangat menyilaukan, langit yang semula abu-abu kini semakin gelap, aku mengendarai motor dibelakang dua makhluk ini.

Can't stop, the feelin to strong, we've got the will to hang on begitulah sepenggal lirik dari lagu yang sedang ku dengarkan saat ini, sebelum semakin jauh dan menyiratkan arti lain inilah beberapa hal mengapa aku memutuskan untuk menulis.

Panggilan hati, perasaan bahagia, menyadari bahwa diantara hari-hari buruk, hari-hari baik masih ikut menyumbang untuk menyambangiku.

Life is too short, so much hatred we spread just because something/someone doesn't run to what we want, or what we planned

we rather let our self think about our own self for our own sake, than to think for the favor of each human being.

too much time for us to hurt each other, when in fact, this life hasn't had enough time for us to love each other.

Life is too short for us to know each human being around us

Ku pikir, waktu masih menyiapkan banyak sesi untuk memenuhi hasratku sebagai manusia yang hidup dengan menyakiti dan disakiti, dengan membalas atau mengalah, ku pikir memang kehidupan tidak akan berarti tanpa terselipnya gelap dalam terang atau rengekan setitik terang dalam gelap.

Sampai pada saatnya, aku melihat, bahwa aku diperkenankan untuk memilih, memilih tenang saat panik menyerangku, memilih bersemangat saat beberapa hal tidak berjalan sesuai inginku terlebih untuk memilih melihat mereka yang membuatku merasa berharga dibanding mereka yang selalu berusaha untuk membuatku merasa tidak berarti.

I choose to breath in present, to live the moment i lived, to always be positive when some things are meant to break. Aku tahu komitmen ini tidak semudah saat aku mengatakannya tetapi bukankah sejatinya hidup ini memang dibuat sedemikian rupa sehingga nampak menjadi lebih sulit dari seharusnya?

Allah memang pelukis yang baik.

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